SUNSHINE SHELLY

You are so very special

Kind and loving to

I have loved you every second

Since the day I gave birth to you

You wrap your arms around me

Hug and squeeze me tight

As I carry you safely up to bed

And tuck you in each night

Its five years since I first held you

Five years since your birth

My Daniel there's nothing more precious

Then you on all this earth

I love you my precious baby

It will always be that way

I wish you a life so perfect

And a happy 5th birthday

You came into my life

Like a blinding light out of the dark

Tenderly holding me in your arms

Cant help but feel the spark

A man so kind and gentle

A heart so pure and true

I never thought I'd feel the way

That I do when I'm with you

Your sympathetic ear

And the understanding part

Helped me to regrain my trust

And allow you in my heart

I sit here in the evening

And stare into your face

There isnt any other man

That could ever take your place

You are my one and only

And you know I love you so

So I hold you tightly in my heart

And I am never letting go

Your smile, your face

Your warm embrace

Brings out the music in me

Your heart, your soul

It filled the whole

Was your love, that set me free

The hurt, the pain

No more remain

It was you that held the key

A smile, a touch

That meant so much

I was blind but now i see

The way you care

And stroke my hair

And now happy I'll be

The loving songs

Put right the wrongs

And now there's a you and me

And to my surprise

My children light your eyes

One big happy family

A love that grew

Between me and you

Its as perfect as it can be

You swept me off my feet

My lifes complete

Since the day you came to me

Here I am, this is me

No where in this world I'd rather be

Then sitting here its me and you

There is nothing that I wouldn't do

I'd light the star's and reach the sun

Just to be your special someone

So if you're sad or in dispair

I'd pick you up by being there

My loving arms reach for your face

Wipe your tears as we embrace

You sink your face deep in my hair

Knowing that I'm always there

A special bond between me and you

Its all so real and so brand new

A love like this it feels so great

At last a chance to celebrate

I feel the love, I know its true

At last there is a me and you

The pain was real now in the past

We build a bond thats meant to last

Two lost souls full of dispair

Unite as one with love and care

You eased the pain with all you've done

You'll always be my someone 

This poem is written for my precious friend

Robert

http://dreamsromeo2022.spaces.live.com

When you enter my space you are greeted

By stunningly beautiful Angels

Without these my poems would just be words

And each Angel is created by Robert

Who never fails to inspire me with his creations

The words come from my heart

But the pictures come from his.

Thank you Robert you are a wonderful

Friend to have I am blessed.

Such elegance and beauty

In the flutter of a wing

Gives me inspiration

Allows my soul to sing

Creations made so real

Touched with an air of grace

You have helped me through the dark times

When you have called by my space

Words of love and comfort

So breathtakingly true

We never fail to be amazed

By the heart inside of you

God granted you a talent

An exceptional gift

To spread your love to all of us

My heart you always lift

A man so kind and gentle

Upon whom I always can depend

My life is so much richer

As I have you as my friend

I feel your body tensing

As I hold you close to me

Feel the hunger in your body

That only I can see

The way you sit and look at me

Takes my breath away

No words need be spoken

As I feel it anyway

So many miles between us

Yet we are never far apart

For I hold you right here next to me

Deep within my heart

I can't bear to leave you

At night when I let you go

If only you just realised

How much I love you so

We have shared so many memories

Talked about all the strife

You made me feel so precious

When you walked into my life

I know we will never be together

It just isnt meant to be

But I have the greatest feeling

Thats the love you give to me

My heart feels like breaking

Please say its not so

You have said that your leaving

We can't let you go

You are such a good friend

And a bundle of fun

So precious to me

You're my second mum

So many times I was lost

And filled with dispair

But you got me through

As you was always there

Through the good times and bad times

When I sat and cried

You was my special friend

And that fills me with pride

I cant bear to lose you

I love you sweet Mo

So stay here with us

Sweetheart we dont want you to go

A woman so precious

And loving its true

The most precious heart

Beats there in you

Your smile lights the darkness

Your love fills the day

You makes us feel special

In your own unique way

There is no one better

I think that you know

And the reason we love you

Is you're our precious Mo

So full of love so full of life

A free spirit once more

Days full of laughter nights filled with dreams

This journey was worth it at least now it seems

A confident smile a tilt of the head

The memories fading the demons now dead

I am who I am and of that I am proud

I hold my head high stand out from the crowd

With love in my heart my soul filled with joy

I stride to the future the new confidence I employ

No arrogance or bitterness inside of me

Just honest and loving you get what you see

Love and compassion of that I am full

So proud I still have it thats the best feeling of all

I have no hatred or malice just a deep sense of loss

For I gave my all but what was the cost

I used to think the loss was mine

But I now realise you lost something devine

So i don't need justice or my pound of flesh

For you poor soul you lost the best

And now I have the best no anger or greed

Just the love of my children all I will ever need

Underneath the starlight

There's something you can't resist

It's a deep magical feeling

Wrapped up in a single kiss

Something to be proud of

Don't ever feel its wrong

A moment in a lifetime

The feeling is so strong

This time could be different

Just have to play it smart

Never be afraid to show it

What's deep inside your heart

Once it felt so forced

Not knowing how to feel

But this time is so different

The feeling is so real

It isn't passion or hunger

Or a partner that was the key

Its the knowledge that I am worthy

To be the real me

So all sit back in wonder

Just look at me now

A smile upon my face

I finally now how

Now every day is happy

My children by my side

Look at all we have achieved

And my heart is filled with pride

My beautiful sons now smiling

Its all I need to see

To fill my heart with so much love

And to be the real me 

There's something I need to ask you

Please listen to all I say

This precious Angel's still missing

Been gone for many a day

She was plucked from a foreign country

As she lay sleepin in her bed

Her parents hearts were broken

Every day now filled with dread

But we all now that she is out there

So we are searching near and far

So we can bring their angel back to them

Please keep wishing on that star

So as you go about your travels

No matter where the place

Please look out for this angel

Take a good look at her face

ANd now I say Maddy

Its with love we hold you dear

And pray for you sweet angel

And in our hearts you're always there

We will never give up looking

Across the world we all will roam

Till ur safe our precious angel

And with your family back at home

Please all keep looking for Maddie

Thank you

xxxx 

There's a place I used to be

With a face I no longer see

There's a voice I hear in my head

Calling to me as I lie in my bed

There's something in my heart

That tears me apart

If I close my eyes and dream you are there

I feel the warmth and the love that we share

You light the stars up above

I feel the strength from the depths of our love

I have a picture of you by my side

Its this image I keep although you have died

I hold out hope when there's a sound

But this silence is playing to loud

So scared to open my eyes and face a new day

Knowing your image will fade away

I hear the Angel's cry as they feel my pain

My best friend has gone how can I remain

You was so sad and I didnt know

So you decided to go

Finding you was no longer here

Filled me with sorrow and incredible dispare

Seven years since the day

That my dearest friend went away

I love you now and miss you more

My beautiful Lucy the friend I adore

I hope you found peace and you're no longer blue

My beautiful friend I will never forget you

Dedicated to my best friend Lucy

WHo sadly took her own life

7 years ago today

Well my dear friends thought I would send

You all a brief message.

I have been unwell recently and on top

Of that I have fallen down the stairs

And broken my collar bone.

Spent the day in A nd E and now in sling

While sat there in agony took a look about me
Sat there in the corner was a beautiful little

Girl with the most genuine smile I have ever seen

This little sweetheart was sat playing

Her mum looking at her with a sadness in her eyes

Me being me said Your daughter is so beautiful

Why do you look so sad.

She turned to me and said

She has an inoperable brain tumour

And she has only weeks to live

I said I am so sorry to hear that

And this poor woman looked me right in the eye

And she said the beautifulest thing i have

Ever heard

She said I just enjoy every second I spend with her

As all the most precious things in this world

Are only ever lent to us and god will call her

When he is ready to play with all the other angels

In his garden, and I am lucky to have had here

For as long as I have.

Made me really think hard and so this poem

I am writing now is dedicated to this precious angel

The one that filled my heart with love

By the warmth of her smile.

Sitting in a silent room

In a sad and lonely place

I was touched by an angel

With a smile upon her face

Sat there playing merrily

Her face was all aglow

A mop of curls upon her head

You could imagine the halo

Sunshine bathed across her face

Reflected in her eyes

The fact that she was dying

Came as a big surprise

So much life and laughter

It seemed to me unfair

I wanted to hold her in my arms

And hold her safely there

As she sat and chuckled

I felt it pulling at my heart

Knowing this angel would leave this world

And we was soon to part

I wished things could be different

Wished her a life thats so devine

A beautiful little person

Whos heart had effected mine

Such beauty in her innocence

Stilled you for a while

Can't believe the sorrow

Hidden behind the smile

She was sent here for a reason

And sadly soon she'll go

Why this has to be the case

I will never know

So I wish here all lifes wonders

As her mummy holds her tight

Sleep you precious Angel

Have beautiful dreams this night

I often sit in wonder

Staring at the stars

Are they the souls of loved ones

Or the lights of heavens cars

Such comfort in their presence

Guiding you through the night

All the dreams of loved ones

Who have just slipped out of sight

All the little angels flash across the sky

As the good lord gives them wings

So they never really die

I sit and watch them playing

Such comfort that it brings

Is it really shooting stars

Or the flutter of angel wings

So many unanswered questions

I guess I'll never know

But god has them for the purpose

To say he loves us so

As I draw back from the window

And let the curtains fall

I hear the angels say goodnight

Sweetdreams to one and all

Well today you will get a blog from me

Rather then my usual poem

I found out today that I have been nominated

For space of the year over at

Spaces Hall Of Fame

I am blown away to think that someone

Would think me worthy of this

My space is just my poetry

Which comes straight from my heart

No flashy graphics no jazzy gadgets

Just me and the love in my heart

I have never done this for recognition

And the love I have for all of my friends

Here in spaceland has always been unconditional

Its been the love of you all that has helped me

Through all the bad times and that's prize enough

But if you would care to vote for me

Then you can but I wish all the nominees

The very best of love and luck

Thank you Moorish you have blown me away

Love you all

Shelly

xxxxxxx 

In a world full of wonder

With a sky always blue

Peace and tranquility

No clouds spoil the view

Laughter  from children

As they happily play

With joy in their heart

Each second of the day

A picnic spread

Avast on the lawn

Wonderful moments

Its a whole new dawn

Sitting together

Make a daisy chain

Signifying the link

Of the family again

So nearly broken

Would of been so wrong

But now reunited

And incredibly strong

Happy smiles

On the faces once more

Thats my special family

The one I adore

The Blank canvas that is my life

Before me laying bare

I now have the chances

To select what I paint there

Its strange to have this option

When I'm so used to having none

But my life is now within my grasp

As all my fightings done

I have so many asperations

To help others my desire

I don't want to think I'm great

All I want is to inspire

I have this immense empathy

And to others love I shower

I hope they can draw upon my strength

And that I can give them power

So I am looking to my future

Over the past 8 months I've grown

I have the strength of Hercules

Thanks to all the love I was shown

So this will be my ending

Of the journey out the dark

For here I am the canvas ready

And I am laying my first mark

So to anyone who's reading

Don't ever feel dispair

Just grit your teeth and remain strong

In the end you'll make it there

While sitting sad and lonely

Not knowing what to do

Someone sent me an angel

Who's heart was pure and true

A loving honest person

Who simply blew my mind

With eyes so deep you drown in them

I can't believe my find

You just sit and listen

And help me ease the pain

I never thought I'd find someone

Who'd make me feel alive again

You listen to my humour

And then with laughter you do roar

The amusement twinkles in your eyes

And my heart begins to soar

So much love and compassion

Its plain for me to see

I feel so very lucky

Since the day you came to me

I look around at precious things

And the beautiful things I see

But nothing in comparison

Is as beautiful as you are to me

If I am ever feeling lonely

Or the pain gets hard to bare

I place my hand upon my heart

And i feel you right in there

If I close my eyes and concerntrate

And wish with all my might

I feel you right beside me

Your arms around me holding tight

I don't know how I found you

Maybe I'll never know

But know I have you in my life

I'm never letting go

Sometimes I have to pinch myself

I can't believe its true

For I've found something special

On the day someone sent me you

Somewhere out there in the pale moonlight

Sits a perfect angel thinking alone tonight

Somewhere out there as she sits in prayer

She's wishing for someone to care

Somewhere out there she hears a lullaby

Tugging at her angel heart she drops her head and cries

Somewhere out there she  hears a angry fight

She puts her fingers in her ears and tries with all her might

Somewhere out there she sees a happy home

Oh she wished that she was there instead of sat her all alone

Somewhere out there she hears a piercing scream

She just wants it to go away wishes it a dream

Somewhere out there she see's a girl with a perfect smile

She knows her daddy loves her so and makes her feel worthwhile

Somewhere out there its perfect she can see

But she just sits her all alone with her misery

Somewhere out there she has a place to go

For she can't live her anymore they think she does not know

Somewhere out there she will smile again

When her mother has the strength to walk away from pain

Somewhere out there away from all this silence

Is a special place for them away from all the violence

Somewhere out there some day she will go to bed

Knowing that she is safe and warm tears no longer shed

Somewhere out there someone knows its true

That domestic violence does not just effect her mum

That poor angel feels it to

A dark place in a empty room

Just lying in the silence

Spiralling deeper in dispair

With a air of defiance

Lives revalued moments lost

A cold and lonely place

Clinging despertely to the edge

Pain etched across your face

So easy just to let it go

Give in with out a fight

But there's people that now need you

So cling on with all your might

The darkness swirls below you

As you trapese across the abyss

Can't believe we're here again

What made you feel like this ?

The world goes on around you

You function through the day

Living on auto pilot

But the pain never goes away

Here lying in this silence

Its where you want to be

To wallow in self pity

Feel the misery

But its time to paste on that smile

Pull on your confidence

Iron out your back bone

And straighten your defence

And now your finally ready

Your dressed to face the day

Fighting against the demons

It is the only way